I don't even know where to begin to tell you how great of a father Robert is going to be. He has such a passion for kids. He is so caring and loving. So non judgmental and open. It brings tears to my eyes to sit and daydream about us having kids and how amazing he is going to be. He deserves to be a father. What if I can't ever give that gift to him? What if he never becomes a father? I can only imagine the questions he has in his mind about all of this. We know several absent fathers. Why did they get that blessing when they don't even appreciate or want it. They don't deserve it. Robert deserves it. He deserves to tear up while seeing his child for the first time. He deserves to have the overwhelming feeling of love. Not only is my heart breaking for me, but it breaks for him too. He stays so strong through all of this. I know he does it for me and I appreciate it. He is my rock through this. He has kept me going when I want to quit. I am forever grateful to God for sending him to me. Whether we have children or not at least I know that I have one incredible blessing in life. My husband.
On a side note, I will do my 2nd IUI tomorrow morning. Lots of prayers please.
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You both deserve it, and you WILL have it! Until then, stay strong. Good luck on your IUI tomorrow. I know all those feelings that go with an IUI....excitement, then reminding yourself not to get excited, anticipation, fear...those IUIs are heavy stuff. I'll be thinking of you and hoping to see an announcement in about 2 weeks:).
I hopethat this is the one!
I have written a very similar post to this in the past about Aaron. I felt like I was such a let-down for not being able to easily give him a child. But it turns out, it just makes them all the more excited in the long run when that baby is on the way.
My prayers never cease for you and Robert to be parents. It has been and will remain my #1 wish until it happens. You will be such fantastic (and appreciative) parents! Good luck on this IUI. Maybe this will be it... :)
It's so hard to not feel this way in "our" situations. I have felt this way many times. And I know Todd has felt that way about me as well... He has said before..."I worry what it will do to us if we never get pregnant..." Something about that statement makes me want to fight harder though...it makes me want to "beat the odds". We are both Christians and know that our marriage will survive ANYTHING. You and Robert will do the same... you will love each other even more and you'll be happily married no matter what gets thrown your way. Good luck tomorrow!
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