21 Weeks

Ok I know I have been absolutely horrible at updating this and I don’t have a good excuse except for I’ve just been flat out lazy! I get home from work and all I want to do is change in to my pjs, eat dinner and sit in the recliner with the heating pad. And let me tell you….It’s Heaven 
Update on my pregnancy. As you can see from the title and my little ticker I am now 21 wks along. Holy cow when did this happen? I’m so amazed at how fast the time is flying by. All my Dr appointments have been going great and my little boys are looking so cute. I will see my specialist for the second time today. I can’t wait to see those cute little babies again. I will start my bi-weekly appointments next month. I’m pretty sure I am going to be all Dr’d out by the end of this. As if I wasn’t already from IVF. Ok so here are some bullet points.

Morning Sickness: I still throw up every morning first thing. After that I eat my waffles with peanut butter and a glass of milk and I’m good to go. It’s so refreshing to feel good during the day now. They are still grounded when they come out for making me so sick though. JK!
Weight Gain: Well this sure did change. If you remember at 15 wks I had only gained 6 lbs. Now at 21 wks I am up 17 lbs. My Dr assured me though that everyone has 10 lb months. WHEW! I’m still not concerned about my weight. I want what is best for these little guys. She expects me to gain at least 40 so I’m still right on track. . I’m happy to say it is all belly too.
Babies Room: We pretty much have the room put together. We still need a rug, curtains and to hang their names on the wall. And then of course just some added decorations. I love it. I love walking in there and being filled with the tears of joy that were replaced from tears of heartache.
Movement: I felt Beckham move for the first time on February 14th. Oh how amazing it was. I have been feeling them daily although it’s still not as prominent as I would like. I know, a million people have told me don’t wish too much for this because pretty soon you will be asking them to stop. Miserable and all I will still marvel at these little ones moving inside me. I’ve waited a long time for this feeling.
Daycare- This just makes me cry. I hate even talking about it. But it’s one of the things that have to happen. We found an in home daycare for a VERY affordable price. We really liked her and this is where the boys will go. I thought I would walk out of there happy because we find a place that we liked, but I was even sadder leaving. It means I really have to leave them. I really don’t know how I’m going to be able to do this.

I still have to admit that pregnancy is not at all what I expected it to be, but I’m starting to enjoy it more and more. I still get no sleep at night thanks to back pain and constant peeing, but I think I’m starting to adjust. Seeing my belly grow just makes me smile. I will update with pics later. I have so much to write about, but that is going to require me to stop being lazy. So maybe soon you will get more out of me. For now that is all the updates I have.

And the Twins Are

Boys! There is no denying that this little ones definitly have hot dogs :) Their names are Beckham Cale and Brody Kingston. We are so excited and can't wait for them to be here now. The room is under way (sort of). I'm ready to start putting it all together, but I have to be a little more patient because we are waiting on a wall to get repaired in the room. Hopefully soon though and I will post some pics.

For Everything There is a Reason

For those of you that have followed my blog from the beginning you know that I have often questioned God. Why was he putting us through this battle? Why would he not want us to be parents? why would he let someone feel this much pain? As much as I questioned, I always new that there was a reason and one day I would know just what that was. I didn't expect it to come so soon, but I think I now understand.

I have been very fortunate in my life to have never loste anyone close to me. At 28 that changed. On December 11, 2010 my grandpa passed away. He has fought parkinsons for a long time and most recently had been diagnosed with cancer. He had some great last days. He had one wish to have us all together on Thanksgiving and we all believe that that was what he was hanging on for because after that it went downhill. In his last days we all gathered around his bed and let him know that it was ok to go home and that we loved him. The night before he passed I was able to kiss him on the forehead, tell him I love him with an I love you back and have him squeeze my hand as if to say it's all going to be alright. I will cherish that last night with him forever. I asked him that night to watch over my babies and I believe he is doing just that as he cracks jokes with God. He was such an amazing man.

My family was very worried about me at this time. I think I was only about 10wks pregnant. Over all I think I handled it a lot better than I ever thought. I'm not sure if it was just the constant throwing up that took away the pain or the fact that I know he is no longer in pain and with our Lord and Saviour. Either way I think God chose this time for me to be pregnant because it's what my family needed. We needed a happy time in the midst of so much sadness.

Psalm 30:5
Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

Grandpa you will forever be missed and I can't wait to tell my children all about how amazing, funny, caring and loving my grandpa was. Thanks for watching over my babies from heaven. I love you!