Thursday, December 31, 2009
Happy New Year
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
I thought I would include some pictures from the great snow storm of 2009.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Here is our Christmas Tree.n We are still in the hunt for a perfect topper.
And here are the lights on the outside of the house. It's kind of a crappy picture, but you get the point. Hubby and nephew did such a great job.
I hope everyone has Merry Christmas. And remember this season is about Jesus, not us!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Ok now to the plan for this month. I went to the RE on Thursday. He prescribed me Femara again and started in on you know we want these things to happen fast and really there is only a 20% chance of getting pg every month yada yada yada. So I kindly said well I think after 2 1/2 years I'm not so happy with those statistics. I want more. I told him about how I was on estrogen the month I got pg, so he said he is willing to try something new. So along with the Femara I will be taking a Progesterone Suppository. Yes you read that right. Twice a day at that. Oh and it has to be refrigerated. This is not going to be comfortable. Now does anyone else want to question if I really want kids? He did say I have to take at least 3 rounds of Femara before he will move on. So this is 2. Let's hope it doesn't go farther than that.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
And here is the plant after we planted it in the pot.
Now the hard part. Keep it alive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All around yesterday was a lot easier than I thought it would be. It is really hard emotionally to think that we should have a child right now, and yet we're still struggling to concieve. I had so many kind words and prayers yesterday from amazing people that kept me going. I really am blessed! Thank you all.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
THOUGHT YOU'D BE HERE Words & Music by Wes King
We thought you’d be here by now
Your mother and I
We’re praying through our tears that somehow
We might hear your sweet cry
Have we waited too long
It’s getting harder to be strong
Is there something we’ve done wrong
But if you like dancing
I'll make it rain rhythm, and rhyme, and melodies, child
And if you like dreaming
Your mother will make your imagination run wild
Somehow, we thought you’d be here by now
We have a room just for you upstairs
It’s right down the hall
So we’ll be close should you ever get scared
We’ll come when you call
It’s a room full of stories
Waiting to be told
Longing to behold
And if you like laughing
I’ll paint you a circus of smiles and ferris wheels, dear
And if you like living
Your mother will fly you to worlds both far and near
I never knew the silence could make me so deaf
I never knew that I could miss someone I’ve never met
Miss someone I haven’t met yet
We’ll be waiting
Monday, November 9, 2009
I will post pictures tomorrow of our memorial plant.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Thought #2 So I have been getting a lot of emails lately from just different people whom I know, but they are my closest friends. I have completely cherished these emails and appreciate them so so much. Seriously these people don’t know how much their kinds words mean. The point of this thought is that I didn’t even know these people read my blog. I have a simple request. If you follow my blog will you become a follower? You can use a fake name if you would like, but it’s nice for me to see how many people actually read this.
Thought #3 I love Starbucks non fat vanilla lattes, but I really wish they weren’t so dang expensive.
Thought #4 It’s amazing how the people that don’t know you that well are the ones you feel like care most for your situation. Why is that? Shouldn’t it be your family and close friends? (I realize there are some of my family and friends that this thought excludes)
Thought #5 Ok this is more of an update on my cycle. I am now 4 dpo (days past ovulation). Oddly enough I will be testing on my angel baby’s due date. I technically am not suppose to start until November 13th, but I can’t resist. A positive test on that day could take some of the hurt away.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
As for the update on my infertility, I start taking Femara tomorrow. The postcoital test won’t be done until I get a positive OPK which should be some time around Halloween. I’m really hoping for it to fall on the weekend so I won’t have to wake up at 3am to get busy. Lol. I’m really hoping this is our lucky month. I’m really excited to be seeing the specialist. I really think it’s already made me relax more.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
The woman on the TTC boards are people I don't know much about nor do they know much about me yet they have known exactly what to say to keep me afloat. They too know the desire to have a child and the feeling month after month when that goal seems out of reach. Thank you ladies for being that support system. You are all amazing and I truly cherish you.
The other day there was a woman ,who has written a book on her struggle with infertility, and I didn't even know she read my blog. Out of nowhere I got an email from her with her sincere words of encouragement and apologies for what I was enduring. If you are reading this I hope you know how much that meant to me that day. God works in the most amazing ways and at the most amazing times.
(BK) I got a card from this person just saying she was thinking about me. I literally cried when I read it because it made me feel so good and grateful to know that I have people pulling for me. We have known each other for a long time, but when we met 12 years ago I never knew God would be using your friendship in this way. I am so thankful for you.
(AS) I want to give a shout out to you for finally acheiving the unthinkable. haha. I love my shout out. Ok now to be serious. When I went to dinner with this person the other night she told me that I was the strongest person she knows. After all she has been through she thinks I'm strong? Thank you for saying those words to me because as we talked the other night there are times when I don't know how I am still pushing through this mess. You give me hope and I have really enjoyed our friendship over the past year. Again you are someone I met 13 years ago and I never imagined that God would use you in my life in this way. Even after all we have been through I wouldn't change it. You are an amazing person and God has finally answered my prayers for you. You deserve this miracle. You're support and friendship have meant the world to me. THANK YOU!!!!
And to my closest friends and family. I know that you all love me and are behind me and Robert. I also know that you don't know exactly what to say sometimes because you have never been in my shoes. I get that, but sometimes a hug is worth a thousand words.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
What are the causes of infertility?
Approximately 30-40% of infertility is due to male factors; 50% percent is due to female factors; and 10-20% is due to either combined male and female factors or unexplained infertility. In the female, the combination of endometriosis, tubal disease, or adhesions (scarring), collectively known as the "peritoneal factor", is the most common cause. Problems with ovulation is the second most common cause. Cervical mucus abnormality is the third most common cause.
I can’t wait now to go see the specialist. I’m curious to see if he thinks these could be a factor. I mean if it’s scar tissue getting in the way it’s as simple as a laproscopy. I might have to go give my OB/GYN an ear full. I’m waiting to see what Dr. Reshef says about it first lol. It really may be nothing, but still I feel like as a patient I have the right to know these results. Not just be told everything looks fine. Oh well just glad to be going forward.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
FYI-After this month I do think it's time to see a specialist. It's been over 2 years now.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Sorry I think my meds are making me a little emotional. I've been having some sad days here lately.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Today also marks the two year anniversary of when we decided to start TTC. I sometimes wish I could go back to that point when I was naïve as to how long this could take. I don’t think Robert or I thought we would ever have to endure this much pain together. I still to this day praise God though for what he has put us through. I feel very blessed that he chose us. It would be a wonderful gift for us to get our miracle this month. Our due date would also be May 2nd. Which in turn I could chose to deliver on 4/27. The one year anniversary of when our angel went to heaven. What a blessing that would be. I want to say thanks to all my family and friends who have been there for us too. We truly have some amazing people in our lives.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
So I'm doing some research on the internet to try and come up with a way to raise more awareness for infertility and I stumble across this on WebMD. So....I thought I would post for all of my TTC friends. I thought it was great lol. See, now there are facts for them to stop telling us this :)
Myth: Relax, and you'll get pregnant.
Fact: Infertility is a disease of the reproductive system. Although stress can sometimes affect hormone levels and ovulation, emotions are not keeping you from getting pregnant. The stress and intense emotions you feel are the result of infertility, not usually its cause.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Friday, July 3, 2009