Sunday, August 23, 2009
How Much Longer
Well another cycle has passed without a positive result. There are days where I sit here and wonder how much more of this I can endure. I think if I didn't have my faith I would have already gone in to a deep depression. I can't even begin to describe the pain I feel every month when I have to turn to my husband and say "I just started". To see his face after that is just heartbreaking. I hate that there are so many well deserving people who have to go through this. I would not wish this on ANYONE! I'm starting a support group at church so I really hope this will help myself as well as others coupe with this. The longer time goes on the harder it is getting to stay excited about being a mom someday. It's almost getting to that point where I don't believe it's ever going to happen. My biggest fear in life is a reality right now.
I will be starting Clomid tomorrow. Please keep us in your prayers!