Thursday, August 27, 2009

What do you live for?

So when you ask people what they get up and go to work for everyday their answer is usually their kids. So what about those of us who don't have kids? I've been thinking a lot lately about what if I can't ever have kids. What will be the purpose of my life. (aside from God). I've honestly always felt I was meant to be a mom. That is my purpose. I find it harder and harder to have the motivation to get up and go to work everyday. All I work for right now are the "things" we have. And the fertility treatments I guess. I don't need those "things" I want a child. I want a reason to get up every morning and go to work. I need motivation for life right now. I wake up some days and wonder when my life became like this. All I do is go to work miserably tired everyday then come home change in to my pajamas and go to bed. I'm really trying to work on my patience, but I'm so ready to have a change. I want our baby.

Sorry I think my meds are making me a little emotional. I've been having some sad days here lately.

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"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life. John 9:3