New Approach

Ok so as you can tell from my last "angry" post I am not doing so well.  With the holidays coming up it's not going to get much easier.  I have come to the conclusion though that my life has to go on.  I can't stop everything like I have for the past two years.  There are trips we want to take, weight I want to lose, clothes I want to buy.  So many things that I haven't done all because "what if I'm pregnant".  I called the RE on cd 1 and never received a call back.  I really didn't care though.  It's time for me accept the fact that 2 Dr's (1 a specialist) have told us we are perfectly fine.  It really is just a matter of time for us.  I don't know if I've ever written this in a blog, but before we started trying I remember praying for patience.  He is trying to answer my prayer and I'm not listening.  It's time to take about 5 steps back.  It's time to put my marriage in front of having a child and not having a child in front of my marriage.  And it's time for a new prayer.  Lord I prayer that your will be done.