Playing Catch Up

Wow I have so much that has been on my mind that I want to write about, but again I've been too lazy to actually do it. I'll just start with one and then give a pregnancy update.

The other night while watching Grey's Anatomy a scene came up where one of the Drs is pregnant (by accident) but gets in a car wreck and they wind up delivering the baby at like 24 wks or so. There is another Dr(Meridith) on the show who her and her husband have suffered one miscarraige and have been unsuccesful in getting pregnant since. Well after the 24 wk old baby is born Meridith is in the elevator with her husband and she breaks down. Basically saying how she has to take shots and temperatures and she can't achieve pregnancy. My husband shouted out from the kitchen, you have been there babe. I cannot tell you the flood of emotions that came over me in that second. I never thought I could forget how painful TTC was, but in that moment I realized that I had because that pain swept over me for the first time in 7 months. It took me back to that exact feeling of defeat, anger, and heartbreak. It made me remember again to be so thankful for these two miracle boys God has given us. I still have friends that are dealing with infertilty and my heart breaks for them. I just don't understand why this happens to some while others have no problems at all. It's just not fair and I pray with all my heart that they will all be blessed very soon. Everyone deserves that chance to have a child of their own.

Pregnancy update! I am now a little over 27 weeks. I mean seriously, where is the time going? We had our first shower yesterday and it was amazing. We got our stroller, car seats and lots of diapers, blankets, etc. Having the shower makes this all so real. We have two more showers to go and then we will start getting together anything that is left. (Like we know what we need)The boys have been moving around like crazy. Just in the past two weeks it has turned in to more of rolling than kicking. Although Beckham still loves to kick my bladder and the bigger he gets the more it hurts! We went for our 4D last weekend and the little stinkers wouldn't turn their heads, so we are trying again tomorrow. We also have our maternity pictures tomorrow. I can't wait. I did my Glucose test this morning. I didn't find the taste of the drink to be as bad as just having an empty stomach. I'm pretty sure I would have puked if I had waited 10 min longer. I won't know the results until Monday. I have gained 30 lbs which I'm still content with. My prediction is it will be 50 total. I'm measuring 33wks..YIKES. They are weighing about 2 lbs each now. It's so crazy to think they will be here in about 9-11 wks. Robert and I are so ready.