Back to the Dr.
If there are any guys that read my blog, you may want to skip this section. Just saying! So today I am headed back to my OB/GYN. It's weird to think I haven't been to the Dr in a long time considering about a year ago and for the previous 3 years, my drs were very familiar and well acquainted with my lady parts. Ever since I got my periods back post partum they have been horrible! A lot of people have told me that theirs were bad too after their babies, but let me tell you mine are not normal. AT ALL! Very heavy and very long. Pretty much through to ovulation. Yes I can still tell when I'm ovulating. I was well trained for over 3 years :) So today I will go in to figure out what is going on and what to do. My fear is that she will tell me I need to be back on birth control. Something I have said I refuse to do after trying for a baby for 3.2 years. A few good friends of mine reminded me though that my life now is about the two babies I have and my health for them. Birth control is not always bad. I have a huge fear that I will not be able to have any more children (we just want one more), but that should not even be in my thoughts now. I need to take care of me so I can take care of them. If for some reason this does turn in to something that does not allow that for us, then I will be very thankful still that God did bless us with these two amazing full of life boys. I have to remind myself sometimes to count my blessings for today and not for the what ifs of the future.
Now how about just some cute pics of my awesome little guys. I want to cry at how big they are getting. Yesterday at daycare I was telling them bye and with his big boy open shut wave, Beckham waved bye. I literally cried. What happened to my babies?