To My Boys

Beckham- My oldest child (by 1 minute). Mommy loves you more than words, kisses or hugs could ever express. You will be 5 months old tomorrow.  I do not know where the time has gone.  You have gone from a 5lb 6oz little bundle of joy to an ever growing handsome boy.  I love the little smiles you give when you see me.  It melts my heart.  You have the sweetest most innocent little voice.  You love to talk to me all the way home from daycare.  We talk about your day and I tell you how much I love you.  You do not like your cereal and pretty much just wear it.  You roll over so good now and you have the strongest little crooked head. You have started giggling recently and it just makes me so happy when I hear it. You've started exploring  so much with your eyes and hands. You love to grab things and just feel them.  You especially like to do this to mommy's face when you are laying next to me. It's one of those times I lay, close my eyes and thank God for that touch. My favorite time with you is the middle of the night when you have a coughing spell (you are always sick). You just HAVE to be propped so what better place than on my pillow with me.  Oh how I love your little snuggle.  You are one of the best snugglers.  You bury your face next to mine and that's when I steal all your kisses.  You don't mind.  You just sleep away.  I want the world for you.  I hope you always know how much I love you and that I would do anything for you my little monkey boy.

Hi Sweet Boy

Brody-Mommy's little tough guy.  You also turn 5 months tomorrow.  I still can't believe that you and your bubba are this old already. By looking at you, you would have never known that you once fit in to preemie clothes.  I think you are going to be my linebacker. (For OU of course) You have the most beautiful blue eyes and the most beautiful big smile.  You giggle when I kiss your neck and I think my heart grows by a million.  You love to scream and grunt.  You pretty much sleep the whole way home from daycare so I don't get to hear about your day.  You talk the most either first thing in the morning or when you are laying in your bed trying to go to sleep at night.  You love your cereal and for the first time last night you actually cried in between bites because I wasn't feeding it to you fast enough.  It was pretty cute.  You have really started exploring with your eyes and hands.  You will reach for toys and put them straight in your mouth.  You LOVE my kisses and will open your mouth for them.  You better do this for the rest of your life. (maybe not the open mouth part) I love you more than words, hugs or kisses could ever express and I also want the world for you.  I will be here for you whatever you need.  Mommy loves you monster.

Hi Handsome Boy

You two have came in to my life and turned it upside down for the better.  I never knew the love I could have for someone else.  Our God is so great in everything he does and I hope I can lead you down a path to follow Him.  I know you will both grow up to be amazing men.  I love you with all my heart.

Mommy

What If

What if you were to wake up today with only the things you thanked God for yesterday?
I can honestly say if this were true, I would 100%  without a doubt wake up with my boys!  There are probably at least 2 times in a day where I will praise Him for the gift He has given me.  I don't know that I've ever had anything in my life that has made me stop on a daily basis and say thank you.  I know what a miracle they are.  God didn't have to give me this blessing, but He did.  And I am so incredibly grateful ever day of my life. 

One of my favorite moments is when Brody sleeps in my arms

He was so exhausted he just slept with his hand on his cheek

When

When did my babies go from this

To this

I just love them more and more everyday and I never know how that is even possible.  They will be 5 months in two weeks :(  Can't I freeze time?  

Happy Halloween

We brought the boys up to work on Thursday last week so they could trick or treat with mom and dads coworkers. We had fun showing them off. Then last night was Halloween and we just took them to my parents and Robert's moms. They did not like the masks that went with these so just enjoy their cuteness in the outfit.

Here are some more random cuteness pics.

This is Beckham at the Dr yesterday. Poor kid is always sick and has been to the Dr more in his life than most. He will always smile though. He also rolled over from his back to tummy for the first time last night. (I know I still owe a video of him rolling over). Here is Brody. He has found his feet and absolutely loves them! I think this is one of the cutest things ever. He will just lay there and grab them and roll from side to side. He has yet to roll over, but he has a little more belly to work with :)

On another note I just went through and read a blog that I hadn't seen in a while. I have a few friends (yes sadly more than one) who have lost their babies in the last year. My heart always ached for them, but I never truly got how devastating it would be until I had my boys. The thought of not seeing those smiles every day or hearing those sweet little coos is absolutely heartwrenching. I am going to do a better job of taking every day in. Not taking for granted the nights when I get to look down at those sweet faces and kiss all over them. No one is promised tomorrow and I want to take advantage of every second I have with them. They are my life!