16 Weeks

It's amazing how different the second pregnancy is from the first.  Aside from the nausea and constant headaches I actually forget that I am pregnant.  I had my 16 wks appt yesterday (more like 15 1/2) and everything is going good.  I'm up 8 lbs total. Oops! I have to constantly eat though to not feel sick.  The heart rate was at 144.  This pregnancy is so boring compared to the twins. I think I had already seen them about 4 times at this point.  I've seen this baby once.  And in reality will only see it one more time.  I'm not sure I'm ok with this.  I think every pregnancy should be considered high risk.  Ultrasounds should be done monthly.  Maybe I should go to the ER and tell them I'm concerned ;) Kidding.  I won't.  Maybe. I don't feel like I need to do any planning for this baby.  We have pretty much everything unless it is a girl.  Then really all we need is clothes.  Aside from diapers and wipes obviously.  Speaking of gender.  We find out a week from Monday.  I am so excited.  The million dollar question these days is do you want a girl now.  My answer is honestly I wanted a girl so bad with the boys and was a little dissapointed, but now I can't imagine not having another boy.  I feel like I am born to be a momma of boys.  So really either way this time I am ok.  I am starting to show.  Still somewhat looks like a fat ball, but it is getting there.  I feel like I am already having braxton hicks, but I'm not sure that is even possible this early so who knows what I am feeling.  I swear today I have felt the baby kick.  I still wonder if I really did though. I could totally be making it up in my head.  I almost feel bad for this baby already.  With the boys they were so anticipated that I did everything.  Belly pictures, pregnancy journal, etc.  I have not taken one picture of my belly.  Haven't even thought about writing in a book.  Nothing!  I have got to make an effort to make this one just as exciting as the twins.  Don't get me wrong. We are super excited.  We just don't really have time after working 9 hour days, coming home to two 13 month olds, feeding them, bathing them, and chasing them to really stop and remember we are having another baby.  I'm actually really excited to start showing more and hear peoples reactions when we are in public with the boys.  I think it is going to be awesome that people think we are so crazy.  I was starting to feel better then last weekend my nausea came back and is now accompanied by daily headaches.  Fun stuff this pregnancy thing is.  I still can say this is a lot easier than it was with the boys.  My aches and pains have not started yet and I think I was still throwing up multiple times a day at this point with no end in sight.  Well anyways, there was my update on this pregnancy.  Robert and I are both guessing girl so we shall see if we are right.

I forgot to mention that the non stop night peeing has started this week.  And imagine this. It's the same week the boys have slept all night long without a peep!  Go figure.  2 more years and maybe I'll get sleep again. I still wouldn't have it any other way though.

My World Became Complete Today

I have to share the most amazing moment as a mom that I may have had so far.  Today we were leaving daycare and I kissed Brody and told him that I loved him and plain as day he said "love you" back.  Me and Robert just stood there looking at each other like did you just hear that?  I of course immediately started crying.  My heart is still so huge right now from hearing those words from my very own son.  I have waited so long for moments like these.  I love those kids so stinking much.

What Are we Up to

I realized I really haven't blogged about all the things the boys can do now and what we have been up to lately.  Really what we have been up to is staying at home.  They have officially become too much to handle in public.  When we go out to eat they are occupied for a good 30 minutes and then they get bored and want down.  Doesn't make for a peaceful dinner out.  We have attempted to go to a few parties with them and that is a disaster too.  It has gotten incredibly challenging and frustrating to be at someone else's house.  At our house we have gates up and the boys can just take off.  At others we have to constantly keep an eye on them, tell them no and chase them everywhere.  It has really been unenjoyable to go anywhere.  So we sit at home and play.  We play in our little pool and they play with their water table. We went to the pool this past weekend and they had a blast and were actually pretty good.  They love water just like their momma.  I am finally feeling better so we were able to make it back to church Sunday. The boys started a new class and they loved it.  When we picked them up they told us they did so good and just played with everyone.  That makes this momma happy.  They are still taking two naps a day.  I contribute this to the fact that the little stink butts wake up at 4:30/5:00 every morning.  I am praying this changes soon!  We are completely off bottles and formula.  This was a major Hallelujah day.  It was actually a pretty easy transition.  Next will be binkies and I know that one won't be so easy.  I'd like to do it before the new baby comes, but not sure if it will happen.  They are eating all adult food now.  They chow down. I don't know where they put it all. I mean they can literaly eat more than me and Robert. Their favorite is pancakes.  Here are some little individual developments.

Beckham:
-words - bubba, momma, dada, nana, ball
-He can stand on his own, but hasn't started walking yet.  He can take about 2-3 steps and then he falls. You can tell he really wants to, so I'm sure it is just a matter of weeks before he takes off. 
-He can somewhat say more in sign language. It is more of a clap, but we know what he means :)
Beckham is still so laid back.  He is starting to get a little tougher with his brother, but for the most part is still very passive.  He gives kisses, but mostly only to his brother.  He has become a major daddy's boy. 

Brody:
words- bubba, momma, dada, nana, ball, please, thank you (ball is his favorite word that he repeats over and over)
-He is full force running!  I swear one day he just took off and hasn't stopped since.  It is so cute seeing his little body just go everywhere.  He is so much happier now that he can walk too.  He walks around picking everything up and throws it. 
Brody is really understanding what you say to him.  I can tell him to go get his cup and he will go right to it.  Pretty much the same for anything I say.  He has a shovel he got for his birthday that he loves to carry around.  He is still very ornery, but also the biggest cuddler ever.  He is constantly kissing his brother and has recently started picking things up and giving them to Beckham.  It is so sweet and melts my heart. 

They have really started interacting with each other.  It will be so funny when we put them in their cribs for nap time.  Next thing you know all you hear is them cracking up laughing back and forth at each other.  Every day is getting a lot more challenging, but it is also getting so fun. I love the different personalities that each of them have. This really is the time when something new happens every day.  I'm excited for the milestones to come.

Happy Birthday Little Miracles

One year ago today is the day my life changed forever.  I would have never guessed seeing those two little faces for the first time would fill my life as much as it has. These boys are the reason for my life.  They are my purpose.  I can't believe they are a year old today. The time has flown and I'm not ok with it, but I guess I don't have a choice. Being able to be a mom has been the most wonderful, heartwarming experience.  I cherish every day I have with them.  These boys have completely stole my heart. 

We had their party yesterday. It was a complete success.  All the people that matter the most in their lives were there.  These boys are going to grow up with a great family and I love that for them.  They dug in to their smash cakes and hammed it up for everyone.  They didn't have much intereset in opening presents, but that's the other perk of being a mom.  You get to do it for them.  They had a great time playing with all their toys last night.  Here are a few pics from the party.  The ones with the boys actually in them are on my mother in laws camera, so I'll post those later.

I am so incredibly proud of these boys and can't wait to watch them grow up.  (slowly please)  They make every morning worth waking up at 5am.  I'm currently listening to Robert tickle Beckham and he is laughing like crazy.  Moments like these make me realize how blessed I am. There is nothing better than the sound of those boys.  I love them more than I could ever express.  Happy Birthday my little Monkey and little Monster. 

1st Birthday Pics and a Surprise

I have so many pictures to post, but need to find the time.  Wait... I mean I need to stop going to bed at 7:30 and post them.  Until then these will have to do.  Nicole Hager did our maternity and newborn pictures.  We absolutely L-O-V-E her work.  So of course we called upon her to do the boys 1st year pics.  She is seriously amazing! Here are a couple that we put on their 1st Birthday invitations.  I will share the rest after the party.  I can't believe it's time for the party :(

Now for the surprise

There is a new (God Willing) Baby Baker coming January 12th.

This was a big surprise.  Of course we were not trying with 10 month old (at that time) twin boys.  We had talked about having a third child, but always wondered if we really would because of how expensive it would be.  I guess God made that decision for us.  I am almost 9 wks, so I still have a few more weeks to go before I feel somewhat safe.  I am sick again this time. It is nothing compared to the boys, but it is still miserable and 24 hours a day.  I officially resent woman who do not have morning sickness! Actually I worship you.  We are both freaking out about how we are going to do this financially.  It's one of those situations where you should trust God, but you just can't understand how he will make this work.  I stress about money as it is.  I know we will find a way though.  After all we have been through this is a huge blessing.

Reflections

Beckham
I miss you kicking my bladder
I miss hearing your heartbeat on the doppler
I miss your hands raised in the air like you have a question
I miss your first little smiles
I miss your preemie diapers
I miss your preemie outfits
I miss the way your little body fit perfectly on my chest
I miss you all wrapped up in your swaddle
I miss the way you always had to be touching your brother
I will miss your precious baby giggle
I will miss the way you say "da" in your whisper voice
I will miss the way you bounce in your crib
I will miss the way you crack up laughing because you think your brother is chasing you
I will miss the way your roll them up
I will miss the way you instantly fall asleep when you are in my arms
I will miss seeing your mouth constantly suck when you are sleeping
I will miss feeling you stroke my hair when you are sleeping next to me
I will miss those tiny hands and tiny feet

Brody
I miss you getting hiccups in my belly
I miss you beating up your brother in my belly
I miss hearing your heartbeat on the doppler
I miss your grunts when you were a baby
I miss your smiles when you slept as a baby
I miss your big kissable lips
I miss seeing you wrapped up in your swaddle as your head made its way to your brother
I miss your preemie diapers
I miss your preemie outfits
I miss they way your fit perfectly on my chest
I will miss the way you close your eyes and let out a loud scream
I will miss your open mouth kisses
I will miss those big blue eyes staring at me when I am holding you at night
I will miss you cuddling next to me at 4am
I will miss seeing you kiss your brother
I will miss seeing you shake your head no
I will miss seeing you play patty cake
I will miss those tiny hands and tiny feet

I think I get now why people are usually on to their second kid at this age.  The babies are starting to turn in to little boys (toddlers).  They are becoming more and more independent.  I truly miss them as babies.  I hope I am taking in as much as a I can every day. Time flies too fast now and I sometimes feel like I don't have time to stop and just be.  Anytime their little hands grab on to mine I take a minute, close my eyes and try to remember that I will miss this. I want to remember what they felt like, the way they smelled, the way they looked at me. EVERYTHING! As much as I hate that they are growing up I know that these days are getting better and better. They learn so much right now and they can call me mom. They interact now. They kiss me now. They are so much fun and the older they get the more I miss them during the day. Not that I didn't miss them before, but you know what I mean. It's everything I've ever wanted in life. I just hope it slows down a little because this happened way too fast!

PS.  Does anyone know why my pics upload sideways? 

Blog Barf

I’m calling this a blog barf because I have a lot of updating to do. So instead of several different blogs I’m just going to do it in one. Hope you have grabbed some coffee.

Easter

The boys woke up to their cute little Easter baskets. Brody had a great time taking everything out and putting it in his mouth. Beckham just got one thing out and chewed on it. They got some great new toys. I really thought they would be more interested in their truck, but just not yet I guess. They loved the blocks and mommy and daddy loved the candy. We went out to my aunts that day for Easter dinner and egg hunt. Of course the boys didn’t really get to hunt, but they got a nice taste of a colored egg. I must say they looked very handsome.

First Hospital Overnight Stay

We have had our first official BIG scare as parents. Last Wed night about midnight Robert woke me up to tell me he was worried about Brody. I asked what he meant and he said he was breathing really heavy. I rush in there and he was taking very short heavy breaths. I immediately picked him up and notice something wasn’t right. We gave him a breathing treatment and then laid him in bed with us. He woke up again about 3:00 still breathing very deep and extremely cranky like he couldn’t get comfortable. I took his temperature and it was 101.3. We immediately decided we needed to take him in to the hospital to get checked out. We got checked in to the ER and his oxygen level was at 91, dropping to 89 at times. He was retracting while breathing which is apparently not good. They proceeded to give him 3 breathing treatments which were each double the dose of what we give at home and a steroid pill. Even after those 3 his oxygen was still at 91. They called our pediatrician to decide what he wanted to do. In the meantime they ran an iv of fluids and did a urine and blood test. They discovered he was dehydrated and he had a high amount of sugar in his blood. It was over 220. A normal fasting blood sugar level is between 80-120. Our Dr called backed and said he wanted to admit him. He was going to come by to check on him as soon as we got in our room. Of course the minute he was up there his oxygen level had gone up to 100%. Right before we went up the Dr in the ER had finally given him oxygen through a mask, so apparently that helped. He said we were just going to monitor him for the day and watch his sugar levels and we should be able to go home that night. Well the 100% didn’t last long and his temperature kept spiking and when they retested his blood sugar it was still 170. So he told us we were staying overnight for further observation. We did breathing treatments every four hours along with this awesome powered nose sucker. I was really worried about how difficult it would be to tame a 10 month old who can’t move because he was hooked up to monitors, but he was especially sweet and cuddling and pretty much just laid with us the whole time. The night was pretty miserable because they come in every hour to do something, so needless to say none of us got sleep for a good 48 hours. His oxygen stayed steady through Friday morning and no more temperature spikes. They rechecked his blood sugar and it was back down to 80 something. So we got to go home Friday morning. He went back in this week for a check up and they said he sounded and looked great. It was a severe bronchiolitis and he thinks his lungs were still weak from having RSV a few weeks prior. Come to find out they also had put some sugar something or another in his iv fluids which made his levels spike. OH lovely ER people. They treated us great though so I will not complain. I’m just happy my baby is ok. We are continuing breathing treatments right now and just keeping a close eye on him and Beckham just in case.

Weight Loss

I would just like to take a moment to brag on myself. I am currently 10 lbs lighter from when I got pregnant with the boys. I attribute this to not having a million hormones pumped in to my body anymore and the lack of stress from trying to conceive. I feel great and hoping for another 10 lbs to come off soon.

House

We are currently in the process of trying to sell our house. We built this house when Robert and I were getting married and it was perfect for just us. Now that we have added two little busy guys to our family we have just ran out of space. There is no backyard for these boys to play in. We got our first offer yesterday. While this is exciting, it is also kind of sad. I am the sentimental type so there are so many things connected to this house. This was the boys first home. We set up their first room there and brought them home for the first time to this house. So many memories we will be leaving behind, but so many to look forward to in whichever home we chose. We want to give these boys so much and a new place with lots of room for them to play is just the start of that. There are so many decisions to be made. Like the right school district, the right neighborhood. I hope they love where they grow up. It’s amazing the way things change when you have children.

Back to the Dr.

If there are any guys that read my blog, you may want to skip this section. Just saying!  So today I am headed back to my OB/GYN.  It's weird to think I haven't been to the Dr in a long time considering about a year ago and for the previous 3 years, my drs were very familiar and well acquainted with my lady parts.  Ever since I got my periods back post partum they have been horrible!  A lot of people have told me that theirs were bad too after their babies, but let me tell you mine are not normal.  AT ALL!  Very heavy and very long.  Pretty much through to ovulation.  Yes I can still tell when I'm ovulating.  I was well trained for over 3 years :)  So today I will go in to figure out what is going on and what to do.  My fear is that she will tell me I need to be back on birth control.  Something I have said I refuse to do after trying for a baby for 3.2 years. A few good friends of mine reminded me though that my life now is about the two babies I have and my health for them.  Birth control is not always bad.  I have a huge fear that I will not be able to have any more children (we just want one more), but that should not even be in my thoughts now.  I need to take care of me so I can take care of them.  If for some reason this does turn in to something that does not allow that for us, then I will be very thankful still that God did bless us with these two amazing full of life boys. I have to remind myself sometimes to count my blessings for today and not for the what ifs of the future.

Pics

Now how about just some cute pics of my awesome little guys.  I want to cry at how big they are getting.  Yesterday at daycare I was telling them bye and with his big boy open shut wave, Beckham waved bye.  I literally cried.  What happened to my babies?