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Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Me Against the World

Is it me or is every single person pg? I mean even the infertiles are all pg now. Don't get me wrong I am EXTREMELY happy for them, but come on. Did it have to happen all at once where I feel like the lone ranger left behind. All of the girls except one on my pregnancy boards are pregnant. And the one who isn't just started trying again so I'm sure she'll be knocked up soon. Then it seems like every blog I've read lately is saying "I'm pregnant"And not to mention anytime I open Facebook, walk in to a store, or even walk in to work it's a pregnant lady fest. Close your legs people....ok ok that was a joke. I know I sound like a complete mean girl here, but I'm not mad at the preggos. When I say I'm happy for them I really truely am. I've said it a million times. I would never wish for anyone to feel this pain. I'm just emotionally drained from watching everyone else get to feel the greatest joy in life and trust me I've watched a lot!

5 comments:

Shanny said...

::closing legs::
I totally get it. I understand. And I'm not in the least offended considering I'm one of the newly preggo bloggers.

For what its worth I don't feel knocked up, I'm actually waiting for my darn spotting to start so that I can add another m/c to the list. Its just what I'm used to. Today I found myself staring at a girl with a baby bump with the greenest envious eyes cause I just feel infertile no matter what.

I am sorry for the pain, I understand it too well. And I'm praying your turn will come very very soon. Big hugs.

Faith said...

Girl, I SO know where you are. EVERYone around me is pregnant and the announcements keep rolling in. I don't know how we're supposed to survive this...one day at a time I guess? I'll let you know when I find the secret:).

Sunshine said...

Yes!! Obviously we were not paying attention when the "Everybody get pregnant at the same time" memo came around! =(

I feel extremely LEFT OUT in the cold ( I was actually just writing about this in my journal a couple of minutes ago!) And like you said, its even HARDER to swallow when even the infertiles are all pregnant now. Talk about feeling lonely!

I just keep trying to remind myself that by the time everyone has their babies.. we will then be the ones walking around with the baby bump "glow" and we wont have to share the spotlight with so many people! LOL!

Atleast that's how I justify it in my sad little mind! haha.. I'm just sooooooo grateful that I have atleast a handful of gals who are still feeling the same way that I am! Otherwise I would be in a straight jacket by now! =S

God Bless XOXOXO

kbaker said...

Shanny! i really hope I didn't offend you. I truely am happy for you girl and you are in my prayers. I hope you can stay positive and that you will be blessed with a perfect little baby. You deserve it.


Thanks to everyone for their comments. They really help me to not feel so alone!

Jillian said...

Kandice,

I am so so sorry. I have been there with you so I know what you are going through. I know it doesn't count now because I am one of them, but I think about you all the time. I was hoping so much that we would be pg together again because it was so exciting that we were due at the same time/almost the same day! I am on a November Loss board on babycenter and some of them have already had their rainbow babies! I remember feeling so devestated each time another one popped up with her positive pregnancy test. However, there are still a ton that have been trying since their losses (from around the same time as us). It isn't fair that some of us are pg and some are still struggling every day. I love you and I think you are an amazing person. I really hope your dream comes true very, very soon!

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life. John 9:3