Monday, January 9, 2012


The first day I dropped the boys off at daycare was an extremly difficult day.  Not only did I not want anyone else caring for my children, I just didn't know these people from Adam.  I cried for a good month leading up to that first day and continued for a good week, with the occasional cry on days that I just really missed them and hated that someone else was getting to enjoy them.  I have to say though that I fell in love with the ladies that were caring for them.  I can honestly say that they truly love our boys.  And although it was never easy to not be the one with them I couldn't have picked better people.  But that has come to an end.  Our daycare is closing and we had to find a new one.  Most of you know how difficult it is to get in to a good daycare, let alone get two babies in to a good daycare.  Only by the Grace of God did we find one so quick.  But with a new daycare comes my anxiety about leaving them all over again.  I cried bawled Sunday.  I somehow feel like I am neglecting my children by taking them somewhere new again.  Somewhere where we don't have the slightest clue who these people are.  They don't know our babies.  They don't know when they eat or how they act.  Will they adjust to these new people?  Will these people love them as much as the other teachers did?  I now am starting to understand what my mom is talking about when she says you will be crying for the rest of your life.  I love those boys more than I could ever express and I just want them to be safe and taken care of.  I absolutely hate that I am not the one to do it, but it's just not feasable for us.  So I want the next best thing.  (you know because no one is as good as mommy)They were suppose to start today, but Brody must have been looking out for his mommas heart because he started running a fever of 101.4 yesterday and it still hasn't broke.  So I guess that stupid new daycare will just have to wait and momma will be the one to take care of her boys!  Only if it is for a couple extra days it makes me the happiest mommy in the world. 

I finally uploaded some pics from my camera so here is just a bunch of random ones.  Oh and I'm pretty sure Beckham will be crawling in the next two weeks.  He can now get up on all fours and rock.  Brody is still just pretty lazy and content laying on his belly.


Hmmm carrots

First pic with Santa

Mommas big boys

Here bubba I'll help

Put me in coach

Ehh I'll be interested someday


Faith said...

They are SO adorable! I honestly can't imagine how hard it would be to pick someone to be with your babies all day. You are doing an amazing job and I know they will be SO well taken care of. Thinking of you!

Anonymous said...

I wrote a whole long comment to you last night before bed and when I was done.. My phone erased it all :( basically I just want you to know that I AM praying for you. And that I am glad te boys at least have each other while in daycare through the week! It woul be worse to just drop off one child everyday (in my opinion) but I'm praying that God will open a door that will allow you to be able to stay at home with them!

Love you!

Megan said...

I miss those handsome boys so much ! Hope everything went good with the daycare!

Amy Sanchez said...

Keep the random pics coming... i miss those smiles, makes me so happy to know how much they are loved by so many people. when i read your words on how much you love your boys it makes me cry. I know you guys are terific parents and they are so lucky to have you both. we all see it too!!!!

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life. John 9:3