Thursday, January 26, 2012

Do You Know How Lucky You Are

I started this morning thinking I was going to write a blog today about the boys 7th month of life, but as I was catching up on blogs I ran across one of a lady who had lost her 28 day old baby to Leukemia. So it brings me to the question, do you know how lucky you are?

I see so many times a mother or father yelling at their kids. Saying things to them that is so inappropriate or heartbreaking. Trust me I get how trying having children can be. Remember I have twins. I have nights where they wake up 7 times and all they want is a paci back in their mouth. I have times where they won’t go back to sleep so I wind up with two kids in my bed. One of which now loves to pull my hair. I have to sleep a certain uncomfortable way just so I can keep my hands on them to know they are staying put. They never take naps at the same time anymore. I have times where they are both screaming and I can only sooth one at a time. I have been taking off at least once a week because one of them is sick. Which in turns means I had to turn down my 30th birthday trip with my friends to Costa Rica. We never have money to do anything. I’ve only slept a full 8 hrs twice since I was 6 weeks pregnant. We’re constantly at the store buying diapers, formula or baby food. Our house never gets cleaned because there isn’t time or their toys have just plain taken over.

You know what I constantly think though? I would rather have all of that than the alternative. There are not many hours in my day when I don’t think of how incredibly blessed and fortunate I am to have those boys. I don’t think people realize this enough. They take for granted what a blessing and miracle children are and how quickly they can be taken away from you. I don’t know if I have this greater appreciation because of all we went through to have them, but what I do know is that I would go through the pain all over again to be able to have this deep love and overwhelming sense of thankfulness everyday for what we have been blessed with. I can’t understand how some people don’t feel this.

It really is amazing the amount of love you can have for another human being. I can’t even explain it. Thank you Lord for these two incredible miracles you have brought in to our lives. I vow to never take them for granted!


Faith said...

I know exactly what you mean. I see so many sad stories and I literally cry with gratefulness every single day. You are right, it IS hard. I do have my moments of exasperation, that's for sure! Any mom would! But never a moment goes by where I don't thank the heavens above for our blessings. In my line of work, I see abused and neglected children every day. I have a really hard time dealing with that now that I have mine. It's just not fair to those babies. I see every day as an opportunity to show my kids how amazing they are in every way possible.

Jillian said...

I am SO glad someone feels like this. I would give up EVERYTHING to have one minute back with Wyatt.


Amber said...

You are such a fantastic mom and a terrific person. I've never doubted for a single second that you love those boys. You even tolerated a tough twin pregnancy without complaint and have been a brave, loving mama! I'm proud to have you as a friend. :)

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life. John 9:3